I needed Sunday this week.
I mentioned that I would mention how the week has been overwhelming to me, but I think the best word would be underwhelming.
I have felt like there had been a cloud over my head and like I have been in a fog. Motivation has escaped me. My attitude has felt droll. I have lacked attentiveness in parenting, housework, and in general, every aspect of my life. I haven't been able to shake it. It's been a very trapping feeling.
I don't need to be medicated.
I don't need counseling.
I don't need to search my past pains and do some sort of program for healing.
I just need Jesus. I need him to fight with me and beside me. I need to fear and trust him more and more. I need to delight in him and value him. That's what I got out of Sunday morning services as pastor preached the last lesson in Ecclesiastes.
Jesus! Jesus! Precious Jesus! Oh for grace to trust you more!