Sunday, May 29, 2011

Days 147 - 149: Dreadful Early, and I Wasn't Ready

So I have been an irritable, tired, moody mess the last few days. I have felt like a sinful wretch, unable to shake my moodiness. By the time an opportunity arose for me to write, I just didn't want to. I have felt so "off", and I just couldn't figure out why.

Before you start thinking that I have a bun in the oven, I will tell you that my irrational irritability is not from that, but from the opposite of that. And this is earlier than I expected. I'm not one to think it appropriate to write of such things in a public forum, but this is what I have learned in the past 48-ish hours:

The flesh wins if you aren't standing firm ready to combat it.

I was caught so off guard by my wretched mood, and that just should not have happened. Sin, whether brought about as a reaction to hormonal shifts or not, should always be combated. I should always be girded with the armor that I need to defend myself against such temptations as irritability, laziness, and impatience. I wasn't ready.

So I blew it. I wasn't plugged into the Power Source to fight the attitudes that attacked my heart. I was a knight on watch without my armor on, and I was taken down so fast, it's ridiculous.

Lame, Kelly. Really lame.

Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm. Stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and, as shoes for your feet, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace. In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one; and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God, praying at all times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication. 
To that end keep alert with all perseverance...
Ephesians 6:10-18

1 comment:

Traci Kenitzer said...

Oh I loved and needed this thank you SOOOO much :) God bless you!